Trust is a two-way street. Gotta give something if you want something back.
Thank you to everyone that cast their vote for our excellent contest entrants!
And the winner is…
I’ll be emailing you shortly about your prize, Meg!
To everyone that participated during the break, once again my heartfelt thanks and appreciation. I adored all of your interpretations. You are all absolutely wonderful!
I’ve moved all the entries to between chapters 12 and 13, for the convenience of future archive divers, and you can always find them by scrolling down to the bottom of the archive page. Just look for “Summer Break 2017.”
On the subject of creating fan-works, I wrote my first fanfic last week. It’s funny, when I’m making fan-art I get a little anxious, (I’m me, everything tends to make me at least a little anxious) but I had no idea how much worse writing fanfiction would be for me. Yikes. YIKES.
I couldn’t exactly tell you why, either. Art…that feels more like…appreciation? Less like interpretation, somehow. Whereas writing…there’s just so much of me in my writing. When I’m creating my own projects, that’s hardly a problem. That’s an asset, most of the time. Yet when I’m writing someone else’s character, it becomes a projection of myself onto their mirror. The characters that appeal to me do so for a reason, and yet there is no way to know if the things I appreciate about that character are what feels right for the person who created it. What if they hate my version of that person? What if they find it off-putting, even?
I didn’t feel like this when I was doing the Oberon’s Garden OCT with Frost. That was basically fan-fiction in comic form. The difference being, I suppose, that the people involved knew what they were getting into. There was a tacit permission and expectation there that I’d be writing for their characters, and they for mine. Perhaps that’s what the difference is?
Part of me just wonders if what I’ve made is really badly written. Cliche. Full of purple prose. I had the idea when I needed to go to bed and then instead of sleeping stayed up until 2 or 3 in the morning writing it. Those are not exactly ideal conditions for quality creations. I mean…I like it. But what if nobody else would? That idea has just been eating me up. I’ve been trying to remember that it’s okay to make things that nobody else likes. That it’s enough if just I’m happy with it. Not everything has to be enjoyed by others, packaged up for public consumption. It’s okay to like what I make. Even if it’s not very good.
That’s hard for me. I base so much of my value on being useful to other people. I logically know that I have worth outside of that, but…ah. I guess I, like Kira of DS9, need to learn that sometimes it’s okay to be useless.
The point is, I had never realized exactly how much courage it can take to play in someone else’s sandbox before. With that in mind, an extra salute of appreciation to everybody who created something for this July break. Thank you for being brave and sharing your creativity with me and your fellow readers.
How do you feel about creating something just for yourself? How do you define the value of a person?