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C13P31 – In Secret

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Side note:  I have adored reading the theories folks have been coming up with recently.  I don’t want to spoil anything for you, so I have largely stayed out of them so as to avoid confirming or denying anything.  However, I do want to express how wonderful and observant and clever you all are and I absolutely LOVE YOU ALL!

So…carry on, you brilliant, beautiful, glorious people.  Carry on.

In non-comic musings, I have been thinking about memory a lot.  Specifically, my own.

I throw my poor memory under the bus a lot.  I preface statements with, “I have a terrible memory, so forgive me if I _____” frequently.  I didn’t care for “Finding Dory” much because it often hit too close to home.  It’s especially embarrassing if I’m playing board games, as I will forget what I was planning to do mid-turn…and if I’m the bank during Settlers of Catan, you will have to remind me you get a brick on 8s and 6s EVERY TIME.  I am hopeless with names, dates, places, faces, and times, and I can only remember that I can’t remember those things because there are five things in that list and that is the number of fingers on my hand.  I can’t remember right from left.  Or which way east and west are relative to north and south without saying “Never Eat Soggy Wheat” and using my fingers to point at each direction as I say them.  I can read a book in a day and re-read it the next because I’ve already lost the vast majority of its contents from my mind.  I have played the same RPG modules at game night and not realized I’ve played that module twice before…with the same character.

I just…my memory is really bad.

But if that is true…how could I keep so many little details for this story in my head?

And it occurred to me:  My memory isn’t necessarily bad for everything.  In fact, it is FANTASTIC for SEQUENCES.

I remember things in chains.  Systems of interlocking cascades.  It’s part of why having my schedule or situation change is so upsetting.  I immediately become very anxious that I will forget something important, because it is no longer within the construct my mind built to remember it.  Break the chain, the sequence, and my memory no longer functions.

It also helps me understand why I have such trouble with names and faces at shows.  Names and faces are disconnected data points for me.  They are not connected to a chain.  So the data is not stored in a place in my mind that I can access.  It’s not that the information is not there.  It is that it is not accessible.  If someone can help me build a chain, a STORY, then suddenly I will have all sorts of obscure memories that I will recall.

It’s also why I’ve always enjoyed math.  Math is simply a consistent set of sequences applied to varying types of problems.  If you know the right cascading process to apply, you can solve the problem.  The process is identified by lining up knowns and desired outcomes, and then applying the appropriate sequence of actions to the knowns in order to yield the desired outcomes.

Thinking about this has made me wonder how I could approach my typical memory problems and fix them with intentionally creating chains.  Repeating someone’s name multiple times when I meet them has never helped me…but maybe I could learn how to create a memory chain for them instead?

It’s always fascinating to learn a new thing about how this weird brain of mine ticks.

Have you learned anything new about yourself recently?