Procrastination is a weird thing. I know that sometimes it’s rooted in fear, but I’ve also learned that there’s a gut hesitancy that my subconscious induces when I need to think something over more. It’s just sometimes hard to tell the two types of procrastination-inducing feelings apart.
I’ve got the script for chapter 11 all written. It’s one of my favorite chapters to date. I really like how it turned out, and I’m very excited to start it, except…
…I can’t seem to start it.
And I’m not sure why. Is it just that Kickstarter has got me so stressed out that my energy is low? Is there some aspect of world-building that needs shoring up before I dive into this part of the story? (I know at least a little bit of that is true — we’re going to a new city and I’ve been making maps and am in the middle of a physical model.) Is there something wrong with the script, and even though I’ve read over it many times now, I’m missing some massive flaw? Or is it just plain, ordinary fear? Not necessarily fear of failure, but just a vague fear of the unknown.
I’m always stuck before beginnings. It’s like I have to brace myself for the challenge of starting something. Hunker down, evaluate the distance, make plans and contingencies, and THEN, only then, can I launch myself from the starting line. I wish I could get to the launch faster, but I wonder if that procrastination is actually an important part of the process? Maybe there’s a reason for my natural resistance?
What do you think the purpose of procrastination is, and does it have a place in the creative process?