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In which Dream Eater for once is willing to dispense with the awkward pleasantries.

Scripts are a funny thing. They’re kinda like good intentions, in that you start out with the best possible aims but in the end you’ve got no idea where you’ll end up, and in the process you’ll probably look up when you’re at nearly the end of the path and realize you paved yourself into your own personal hell. Page production ran into a wall this week because what I thought was the strongest part of my script for this chapter turned out to be merely the first idea posing as genius. (First ideas are very sneaky and vain this way.) So this week has been much soul-searching, outlining, and gnashing of teeth as the buffer gets progressively slimmer and slimmer. I did eventually figure the darn thing out, but it was no small effort to wrangle.

Part of it is that stories change as you bring them from their first draft into their realized pages, and another part of it is that I change over the course of production. Between first writing the script and now, I’ve gone through some pretty big, life-changing events. Some of those have been exceptionally hard and unpleasant, and maybe at some point I will be ready to talk about them here. I’ve experienced new things, and that colors how I write. Even how I draw. I’ve been faced with deeper underlying problems and know the face of what I’m writing about better. Taking things out of the instinctive realm and into the empirical one as a writer can be both a painful experience and a therapeutic one. Painful, because we have to go through something terrible to know it from the inside out. Therapeutic, because at least through creation we can change our internalization of those events. Externalize them, even if it’s couched in metaphor. It’s not quite the same as an outright, clear discussion, but it seems to be a half-way point that can help a person survive.

I’ve often wondered why there seemed such a strong link between bad experiences and creativity. Is it because creativity helps us survive the bad, or that bad things force a need to create? It used to scare me a lot, that if I had a child, they wouldn’t be able to create unless they’d undergone pain. If I imagined a future child I’d want to shelter them from any harm, but I thought that would mean accepting that they could not share the joys I found in being creative. Now, having met children that seem to have a lot of joy in their life, I think that creativity is simply a natural outlet of expression. For good or for bad emotion. It can come from joy just as much as pain, and that gives me a lot of hope.

Where do you think creativity comes from?

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I do think creativity is just a thing that people do, but I also do think that creativity is intrinsically linked to the creator. I look back at old stories I’ve written and see the things I was struggling with written in broad strokes all over the page, even though I had no intention of doing it that way.

My creativity seems to flow more easily on days when I have something else I need to focus on (i.e: homework). Yet, even then, many of the real life situations I muddle/suffer through seem to fins their ways into my scripts and stories, proving that even fictional writing has a fair amount of true tales in it.
And after going through the majority of the horrible experiences in my short life, my creative writing gets another layer of thought and theory added to it. Stuff that started out as cheerful diversions from the other works get deeper and deeper, until I have what my mom calls “a truly insightful work” sitting in front of me. Sometimes it’s a cohesive story, most times it’s a handwritten mass of notes and paragraphs (or sketches) that get turned into a piece I’m actually proud of.

I think creativity is something we have available to start with, but we value and use it more when there is (or has been) some pressure suppressing it, and either that pressure has gone away or we are trying to push back against it.

The world we live in today is *full* of pressures to conform, to fit in … things that people “just do”.

I have slowly been rediscovering my love of writing since I stopped being required to do it for school.

Creativity is I think exactly as you describe it. It’s a thing that comes from emotions and the things you create are just you putting little pieces of you out there. You can’t create something you don’t have passion about – and one thing about bad experiences, about horrible pain, is that it breeds passion. You can get passion from a lot of other things, but bad experiences are one of the few things that constantly create.

Hey, Robin, looking back on this now – do you think that Dream Eater being who he is also came partially from your fears that creativity can only come from trauma? I can see themes of that in the way Dreamers work, too, where their creativity can consume them and how Mizha is using her dreams to flee from the reality of her horrible choices.

It’s an interesting thought…but it doesn’t quite feel right. Both aspects come more from a belief that nothing is purely good or bad. When I was learning about Taoism, one idea that my teacher presented that really stuck with me was “At the root of all good is evil, and at the root of all evil is good.” The world is not so simple as clear right and wrong, easily identifiable good and bad. They are interconnected. Rather, it is a lack of balance that causes destruction. Which is, in its own sense, a source of creation as well. Nothing is without consequence.

Dream Eater being a dark god also comes from a strong reaction I had to an interesting experience at the end of an author talk. The author had gotten very into meditation and the idea of extra-terrestrial beings, and finished the talk by asking us to join in a meditation circle. Then she talked about how we should send our thoughts out to these Outside beings, and how our thoughts should be nothing but goodness and light and love. And all I could think was, “But that’s a lie. That’s not the whole picture. We’re not all just these light things. We’re dark things too, and those are beautiful and powerful in their own way. Why only the worship of The Light? Where is the worship of The Dark?” So from that, a part of what makes Dream Eater…well…him…was formed. Dream Eater is a dark god, but he isn’t evil. He just belongs in the worship of the dark.

It’s really interesting to hear you talk about these sorts of things and the experiences that shaped them. Darkness and the more bitter parts of human experience being just as valuable and real as the goodness and fluffy light I think is a sentiment I can fully get behind.

it’s also probably why I like Dream Eater so much.

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