Last day of 2013. What a crazy year it’s been. So many things have changed this year for me, and there were so many new experiences. I changed careers, changed jobs, got married. First time at a variety of local conventions, first out-of-state convention too. First major disruption to the plan I set out for myself two years ago, with the Kickstarter set-back. First class I’ve ever taught on my own. There’s been so many new things all at once that I try to look back on the year that’s gone by and I feel like I’m drowning in a wave that’s not yet come in to shore.
I feel a little lost, tossed about, the sail’s torn ragged and the rudder’s got a mind of its own. And at the same time, I feel like there’s a direction where before there was none. That we’re out of the doldrums and although the water is turbulent at least there are gaps between the clouds through which the stars can be glimpsed. Where once I knew the future — a cloudy, lifeless misery that stretched on forever — now I am surrounded by uncertainty. And that uncertainty is both gift and curse. Because at least I don’t know what I can and can’t do, which means there’s no difference in risk between trying and not trying. In fact, trying has better odds, as failure and success are equally unknown. Anything could happen. And that’s a very scary and exciting place to be.
So 2014 will be a year of Trying Things. And maybe some of them will work. More than likely, most of them will not, but I’ll certainly be learning things as I go. So while this will be an uncertain year for success, it is guaranteed to be a rich year for learning.
What kind of year do you expect your 2014 to be?