Conviction is an interesting thing. There seems to be two types: That which is based on ignorance, and that which is based on experience. I’d like to say that conviction based on experience is superior to ignorance, but that depends a lot on what people take from their experiences, and how limited the experiences are. Although, I suppose a conviction based on a limited set of experiences is still based on ignorance.
Having conviction can make a person powerful. They’re free of doubts, unwavering in focus, and able to make sacrifices necessary to achieve a goal. These are also the same traits that make a person dangerous. Or, in some cases, just extremely foolish.
When I was in High School, I thought that the only people that were going to be happy in life were the ones that went to College. I was very judgmental of anyone that wasn’t intending to go, exceptionally driven to get in, and once there, to get a degree as fast as possible. However, once I got out, I realized that I’d been so focused on getting through the program that I hadn’t enjoyed much of my time there. Furthermore, I found that having a degree didn’t make me happy, nor having a job based on that degree. It made me completely rethink where happiness came from, where my passion lay, and what I needed to do in order to achieve happiness. Now I no longer have the faith and certainty that college is right for everyone, or even that it was right for me. I’ve lost that conviction, but in a way I find the uncertainty more fulfilling.
What do you feel conviction for? How has it changed with experience?