When I first wrote this chapter, I ran it by Cory, and we ended up having almost exactly this discussion (with a lot less yelling, of course). To use his words, Nikel threatening the lives of the people Kali cares about “Is like coming to a Mexican Standoff with a gun pointed at your own head.”
To me, that concept was a complete shock. The fear of not only losing people, but that each death would be my fault, was crippling when I put myself in Kali’s shoes. Even though that makes no sense, even if I wasn’t the one taking action, it was my default to assume that if something bad happened, it was because I wasn’t good enough to prevent it. It’s not that the power isn’t there. It’s that the perspective is lacking in order to grasp it. In the end, I decided to keep the flow of the story more-or-less the same. I could write truthfully to that illogical fear. But I added Cory’s voice in the form of Tama’s out-burst, pointing out where the whole cage of fear falls apart. As Franklin D. Roosevelt said: “Only thing we have to fear is Fear itself.”
Although I think my preferred quotes in that vein are:
“You can go amazing places when you quit stepping on the brakes.”
— Dr. Larry Iverson
“Most of the shadows of this life are caused by standing in one’s own sunshine”
— Emerson, Ralph Waldo
What’s your favorite quote, for overcoming the things that hold you back?