This is something Kali and I have in common. I don’t know about you, but when I’m down, there’s no nice thing another person will say to me that I will believe. Cory will try to tell me I’m nice, or beautiful, or a good person, and I’ll say, “No, I’m not, I’m mean and ugly and horrible.” I can’t understand why he’d even waste the time to tell me such things. Of course, when I’m up, I understand why, but that perspective doesn’t seem to survive the trip down. I am trying to train myself to at least say “I’m glad you think that,” or “Thank you, that’s kind.” It’s at least a step above my old bad habits. I hope one day I can learn to see what he does.
Continuing our series on piecing my artistic past together, here’s some illustrations I did for a story I wrote in 5th grade called “The Tale of the Fuzzy-Grumpers.” (Don’t ask me about the name, I honestly have no idea where that came from.) I only wrote two chapters, but if memory serves, it involved overthrowing an oppressive totalitarian regime that relied on the enslaved Fuzzy-Grumper population. Also had oppressive gender roles? Clearly, I already had a fascination with sprawling worlds and stories that were way too big for my own good. 🙂
The two chapters that I wrote had the mean janitor “Brice” (which was oh-so-cleverly a disguised version of a mean janitor at my school named “Bruce”) turning into a crazy scaled bat-winged bird thing (top picture) and carrying me away to another world. There, he accidentally dropped me and I encountered a wild Fuzzy-Grumper (the adorable fuzz-ball at the bottom).
In hind-sight, it seems obvious that I’d want to be a storyteller when I grew up. It’s rather shocking that I didn’t realize I had a passion for this until a few years ago. It was just something I did. Looking at all these stories, and the piles and piles of comics I’m finding, it’s hard to understand how I set my sights on anything else, let alone for so long. Hindsight is 20-20, as they say!
What have you looked back on in your life and viewed differently because of hindsight?